Update on Little One

I haven't been giving many updates on our little one as nothing had really happened.  Social Services are not the fastest moving group.  We have had little E for 10 months now and she is 11 months old.  In someways, the time has flown by.  She is growing like crazy although she is still a tiny little peanut at only 17 pounds.  She has started scooting all over the place and doing cute tricks like waving and giving high fives.  She gets cuter every day with her big blue eyes and silly faces.  To say the least, we are totally in love with her.  So much for guarding my heart.

Her case has begun to move through the court system.....at a snail's pace.  She had a court date a few weeks ago where they changed her "plan" from reunification with her parents to guardianship with a relative.  What this mean is that we have to wait until random relatives come out of the woodwork and take guardianship of her.  If relatives do not show up by the next court date (Jan) we can apply for adoption.  Talk about nerve wracking.  I am torn between attempting to think positively (power of positive though and all) and not getting my hopes up.  She calls me "mama" for goodness sake.  So far, not a single relative has even called to check on her.  That's not to say they won't show up but they havent' been involved so far. 

I have tried to prepare for the fact that she could leave.  I cry every time I think about her little, chubby hand waving goodbye.  She could walk out of our lives and we would never see her again.  Would she think we abandoned her?  Would she been crying for us, confused?  I can't imagine not being there for her when she needed me.  I don't know how I could lose a child.  So if you are reading this please say a prayer, give a positive thought or send us good vibes.  Whatever you do, will work for me.  We need everything we can get. 

Because I can't send photos of her adorable face...

Here she is relaxing with the girls at the after school program.  She sits in her backpack while I teach and joins in social hour when I am finished.  She has quite the following.

Dinner time. *added 1/2019